Things have been really dysfunctional with Chris. Seeing that I'm moving in in a month with him I am seriously kicking myself in the ass right now for breaking my lease. It was a bad time. Two days ago he was going to break up with me or not talk to me for a few weeks, then last night he invited me over for dinner. He also made me feel bad about wanting to have sex with him (I know weird huh) so now we can't even have sex. I'm not ok with being in a relationship without intimacy especially when I'm criticized for wanting to. He's obviously crazy right now for reasons that make sense. I just wish he could let me know if he doesn't want to be in a relationship instead of telling me over and over again how much I have fucked it up. I somehow always ruin every relationship I have been in terribly. I've been playing wow with Kathleen to curb the horrible depression that could arise from this. I'm like mentally preparing to be single, with no place to live so I'll have to move in with my parents. That would save me some money though. I guess I'll just see what happens.
ANYWAYS, enough complaining about that for now. I'm getting my hair cut on Wednesday and I'm excited. My hair is too long and it's too hot to have hair this long. Usually summer heat doesn't bother me at all, but this summer I find it more annoying that usual. Probably because I have too much hair making my poor neck all sweaty. Ew. Also I have a gift card there so it's free. So yes, I am excited.
2 comments:
Sex is such an integral part to a relationship! I know he has good reasons for being stressed out but he does not have a good reason to treat you poorly! Your needs are totally understandable! Maybe every relationship thus far should have been ruined(I say this in a loving way come on you know you did not want to marry...what is a guy you dated in middle school...Nathan...someone else is on the tip of my tongue...)? I don't think it is all your fault and it is too true that people grow and change as do relationships.
I am glad you have Kat. I am here too if you ever need to call! You get your hair cut and flaunt it!
Dude, sometimes a haircut has mental cleansing effects that last way beyond the just-shampooed scent.
Rock it girl.
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